jaangarcia

you know whats so hard about it? the hardest thing about it is knowing that your partner is able to enjoy life without you. twisted. he should be able to. but thats the hard thing about it. your torn apart with two things… 1st you want that person to have a life, like you want to have your own life… 2nd its hard to accept that your partner CAN be happy without you because thats the opposite of what you are feeling… i am feeling rather… i feel that i cant be happy without him and yet i see and i feel that he is without me. that sucks isnt it. and you know whats so hard? well he can never understand no matter how many times you tell him. you stopped trying because youre starting to sound like a pirated cd. this has happened in my life before… back in high school.. the only difference is im the one who has been left behind. now i am the one who went away. its so much easier to move on when youre the one left behind because youre in youre comfort zone which is the exact opposite of when you went away. being away leaves you nothing except with what you carried with you and thats a lot of emotional baggage…